HaPpY HaLLoWeEn ?!?

I'm quite surprised the moment Carmen wished me!Yeap,I googled for the title.It means Happy Halloween!

Here it goes," Historian Nicholas Rogers,exploring the origins of Halloween and it is now a holiday observed on October 31, primarily in regions of the Western world.It is believed for the need to ward off harmful spirits which led to the wearing of costumes and masks.Christian mostly holds no threat to the spiritual of lives and so children are being taught about death and mortality."

I think it is likened to Ghost Festival in Chinese tradition,just that the Chinese ghost day comes out with burning incense and joss paper.I scared I will have phobia for ghost tonight off to sleep.Haha, nolah, I'm already 21,too old for such things! =P

But... isn't it sounds so sad and solemn?Did people still think for the reason behind when they celebrate this merriment?We are let into this world,we meet each other,greet each other and just wander together for a brief moment.We will grew old and one day die. Then we lose each other and disappear as suddenly and unreasonably!We are only here for a short visit?I'm now let into a wonderful pessimistic,feeling that life is just like a theater.Yea,we will soon realise that nothing lasts.All the beauty that surrounds us must one day perish too!

DaMn MaLaYsiAn StUdiEs !

Come to Mahsa, sad to say,I'm not exempted from the Malaysian studies,which is equivalent to Sejarah and Pengajian Am.So,I have to start it all over again!PLEASE!!!I dont need that!I'm already too tired of memorising a subject that have spent my entire 8 years of education.I just wonder why don't the government slot in more significant stuff for us to learn?

For today's Malaysian Studies,I have to/must present two issues in front of people: the first topic is Vision 2020 and another is ASEAN.It's quite awkward that I could feel my vocal chords become taut and the tone of my voice changed in the middle of it.Arghh! I constantly find myself with this trouble-a lump came into my throat when adapting to different situation, somehow,it's quite fine that during the presentation,no words vanished while uttering them,haha!And also,Cik Siti Maria,am quite impressed to your compliment during my Question-Answer section just now.So when look back now,I should rather treasure the progress I've made!By the way,Malaysian studies may be a good practice and training for me,learning how to analyse and express myself better now!

"Aren't you know you are smart and good-looking ?"I told myself when accustomed to different circumstances.Haha,I know it's arrogant of me but I rather be proud of myself than let them condemned me!

Isn't it a pity to see the great potentialities of highly-strung people go to waste in spite of all the intelligence they have?Life goes on, and so, a state of perfect balance and to be completely at ease with the world is what I aspired.

ThRoUgH My EyEs...

Why is she telling us/me this things?I keep reminding myself,I see and hear nothing...Aren't you know money without wisdom and education is meaningless?just like scenery without solace is meaningless?
yEa,not many people believe in other people's dream anymore these days.Not many people say encouraging words.No wait!too many people say encouraging stuff but a lot of it is fluff !Anyway,all the people I met there have other things to teach me as I know I can no more separate one life from another.And yet, I know my life as a commodity had just begun ,Gambette!I'm now learning how to strike a balance between being and doing these day .

Another issue: Budget 2010(a precursor to the 10th Malaysia Plan)
It's really a simple and straightforward budget.I'm overjoyed that government is going to subsudise my broadband fees.Just I doubt...A RM50 fee on credit cards and RM25 service tax on supplementary cards is pretty difficult to understand.This will more than offset dad's saving from my broadband fees.

A FrUiTFuL DaY =)

Well guess what for mum's came down?She bought me lots of juicy fruit in the market this morning ! Did I mention that my home is a fruit paradise?Let me tell you the fruits available in my fridge now: apple, orange ,grape, kiwi, dragon fruit, papaya, guava, pear, lemon, avocado...However,the best for me in KL now is an apple a day.Yay,fruits shown to lower bad cholesterol level, reducing risk of heart attack, natural remedy for acne, miracle cure for cancer, weight loss, improve your digestion and so on......

1 MaLaYsiA oR EquAL MaLAysiA ?

Digi messages service will sending Indo news daily which I will hurry into a 'delete mode'. However, yesterday,it gave me a glance into the 1 Malaysia concept,asking me to vote or choose to comment on it.

Nothing much for me to say about Malaysia before that.Till then being away from home to Indonesia,has made me realise how proud I am of my motherland.There is so much difference though both are third world and developing country,not to mention here about the bibery in Medan Imigration Department=.=and blah blah blah...I realised how proud I was to be from a country that had modern metropolis like KL(my current capital,haha)and I was blessed with the thick ,lush greenery paddy field like in Alor Star(again,my birthplace).I love my country as much as I do my nasi lemak,hahaha!

Well,I do study from Pengajian Am that this 1 Malaysia national philosophy is mooted by Dato Tun Abdul Razak.But just looking at the slogan,we can roughly know it is to ensure people of Malaysia a closer unity.So,I googled it and saw 2.4 million 1 Malaysia sites flash up!Yet from websites and blogs,1 Malaysia concept is pastered everywhere.There is simply no escape!Basically,I browsed through news of politician's point of view.Here it came ...Najib declared Sept 16 as Malaysia Day,a national holiday from next year."Malaysian will celebrate two national days to commemorate the formation of the federation of Malaysia following the inclusion of Sabah and Sarawak in 1963,"Najib said.

Wow!I guess dad will probably thrilled over this if he is still not a pensioner.Or maybe very soon we will have more holidays on Chinese Mid Autumm Festival too???Basing all argument among communities,some quotes that the timing of announcement comes at a time when Anwar Ibrahim's PKR appears on the verge of collapse in Sabah&Sarawak.Well,I will just say I'm clueless in this matter,whether it is "all work and no play makes Jessie a dull girl"or in contrast,it is left for the leader to decide.I could just hope for our government to turn the slogan into action!

A BeAr hUg FoR YoU,MuMmy!

I couldn't put my feelings into words when receiving your phone call today, mum!Surprisingly,telling you are coming KL tomorrow morning by bus, personally and specially for me!
Hurrah! longing for the ikan bilis with chillies you are going to bring me as my fiery appetiser, the scarf to keep me warm from my extremely cool class,the brand-new notebook cooler to give my PC best air flow,wow!..and I know a long list of stuff going on and on...
My heart was throbbing with excitement rhythm now! A precious moment I am looking forward!
Love you bunches,mum =)

BluR...bLuR...

This piece of paper is showing route takes to Kamar Bookshop which I asked Ang Yee to draw on it,exactly one week went by.I can't try to get my mind off what had happened when Mabel asked about that.I had it turned upside-down, playing hide and seek in my file. The worse is I assumed my another friend had taken it.What a failure I am that day!

Why had I never remind myself of my name?...“子絮”more or less pronounced as “仔细” means careful in mandarin,either it comes so innately from my parent's hunch or they have achieved their intuitive understanding of my big weakness as whole before I'm brought into.But I'm not exactly as what my name means to be!

I'm now relate back of my painful past in Medan that I almost have forgotten.I remembered how I forgot to bring my histology assignment that I had to take little 'angkot' back hostel in order to pass it up.Huhh...I got it back finally ,but the consequence is it turned out to be my mentor's assignment!And that I had to walk a long way back hostel again!

Oh,I'm truly a girl of blurriness.As what dad and mum always said,"You are no longer a child but you aren't grown up either,you don't even know what you are doing sometimes!"That's so right...

I tend to write now so I tend to remind myself.Such things ought not to be allowed! I ought to have been more careful to let my name enabled myself.

ThE AnTiPodE Of BeInG iLL.

I'm feeling a bit fragile these few days, caught in flu because of this tinny and invisable "little germs"that appear anywhere. Ok,I appreciate it anyway! haha...just i feel how tragic it is that I had to get ill before I can truely understand what a gift it was to be healthy and alive.Yeap, if we never ill, we would probably not knowing what it was to be well.

I took this " 白花蛇舌草 " and my discomfort gradually subsided.Because of dad's greatest expounding for health and his forces of nature introduced into my home, I have this Chinese traditional medicine since my early stage stepped into this world.

My mind now came across the time when I told my friends of my decision of withdrawing studies in Indonesia..." Why don't u take MBBS? ", is always the question I encountered .What words should I simply popped out with this complex question ? Can I tell them I will give no deadly poisonuous medicine to anyone?or even I am so self-centered that I want to abstrain from deleterious and mischievous act? I could only give a vague notion ...However ,i am sure both good and bad have their inevitable place in the order of things too!

Yeap,I have this idea and concept because of my dad! He never gives up but tirelessly pursues his quest for truth.I salute you,dad! I admitted,my parents were the greatest influence on my thought, just somehow I never try to give that impression.Days before,I always considered dad as someone who spoke on behalf of something greater than himself as we do not always think alike.But now only I realised how little I know!

And,I am here, still pondering on the true meaning of life...

WrAppEd iN A TotALly DiFFeRenT WoRLd.

Time does pass fast and this is the fouth week I'm here in KL, pursuing my studies. 17th of October, Deepavali aka festival of lights,my friends are all going back,but confining in my eerie silence room on this beautiful day like this can never defeats me...haha.Having a frugal meal cooked myself just now and I would say:"hell,what was the matter with my cooking?!?". My mind now drifted back of mum's homemade food,her wholemeal bun instead of an evening out on the town and my blanket from mum's sewing machine instead of sacks.

Mahsa Uni College to me is just like heaven as compared to Universitas Sumatera Utara(USU),in terms of the up-to-date dental technology and facilities, veterans of renowned lecturer... maybe this is the stoic response to the hardship I have gone through in Medan and am now realised that that journey, in other words, is its own rewards! Yeah,I know nobody can say for sure what lies ahead for and I'm still struggling to figure what my coming life is all about, still looking for answers but so far it is of my utmost satisfactory!

Honestly, I do really love my friends here of different background, the ways they talk and act. My subtle charm to my roomie,Mabel, whom I marvelled at her determination and alertness. Carmen,my another nice buddy,had the exciting and horrendous story of her expedition ventured into Salem,Bangalore,New Delhi & Manipal of India shared with me...and how they were there for me, wandering around for hours at the bus stop just to help me get my DIGI internet modem access! Thanks you guys,I will and would value it to the end.

I know life can never be perfect.Sometimes there were tears of pain,exhaustion and frustration.But mostly there were hapiness,smiles and satisfaction too,yea... just how I look into it =D